Today is a sad day for me.....Brenn is really losing her hair now, I walked in to the bedroom just before Brenn was going to bed and on the bed there is a a pile of hair. Scott says that Brenn started pulling her hair out in clumps and that she told him it felt good to do it. I looked at Brenn as she was laying in bed and I asked her if she was okay and she said "yes". The bravery of my five year old daughter is astonishing to me, a brief time ago she was in denial that she would not lose her hair and now it seems as if she can't get it off fast enough. I'm thinking that her beautiful long curly hair is not all that comfortable for her now.........

So to start from the beginning....... our day started with going to school, which Brenn of course did not want to go as she says "it's boring, we just sit around" oh and her "stomach hurt". So in we go to school an hour late, she sits down and after a few minutes gets into her school work, Scott and I puttered around the hospital and went back to get her 45 mins later in hopes to bust her out to meet up with a little friend who was diagnosed a year ago. Well life doesn't always go as you planned. We get there and Brenn does not look well, she was pale with red cheeks and clammy to the touch, so off to clinic we go to get her temp taken......5 hours and a whole battery of tests later we find out that Brenn's counts are really good and that more than likely she had a hot flash! This could have been from a few different things a side effect from her steroid, a stomach cramp from her digestive (poop) med, or a combination of number of side effects from the chemotherapy that have come to light over the last few days. Either way we were sent home with a urine cup to fill at Brenn's convenience and reassured that Brenn is okay but encouraged to bring her back if we are unsure of anything......we are truly blessed to be at the children's hospital with such a great team of doctors, nurses and other professionals.

Saying that we are just blessed in general.......a great family doctor who cares enough about his patients to get to know them and knows when something is really not right and to pursue it further, we have great family, friends and a community who go far beyond anything that Scott and I could have ever conceived and last but far from least we are blessed that Brenn body is fighting so hard against this illness and that despite the side effects of the meds she is still producing her own healthy cells at such a rapid and astonishing rate. Go Brenn!!!!